cr: as tagged

as you can see, it's obviously ONLY a pic of Taeyeon and Baehyun caught in the middle of talking. it  was taken at the ending of SMTOWN Seoul 2012. world already knows that baekhyun is a big fanboy of SNSD and since Taeyeon has the best vocal among the members i secretly have this idea that probably he likes Taeyeon the most (still it's my perspective looking at myself liking Baekhyun the most because i myself love singing)

but then again, so what? it's not like they date or else. but i felt so bad. like i saw something i really didn't wanna see. but why? why this? do i know Baekhyun personally? no. does he know me? no. does he even know i exist? obviously no. then why... why do i care too much?

and then again i looked up on youtube and found this video. and i was like... "whoa, Baek, really?" and without me noticed i was in tears. goddamn this feels. why should i be in tears? it's ridiculous. i never really liked SNSD and Taeyeon (even i do admit that they're all pretty and Taeyeon has an amazing vocal). this is just so weird. is that how much i love you, Baekhyun? i know you're also a human, but we're on really different levels. at this rate i should just love you a fan. and as a fan i should be happy for you if you have to get to someone you like for a long time. 

but again, no. i'm not happy. at all. why?

i think i know the reason. i just pretend i don't....

it's not that i love you THAT much. it's because i hate being in trauma. trauma about unexpected event of undesired love. trauma of looking at something hurting right in front of my eyes. trauma of one-sided love. trauma about thing i am even scared to talk in my own blog...

 

cr: as tagged

as you can see, it's obviously ONLY a pic of Taeyeon and Baehyun caught in the middle of talking. it  was taken at the ending of SMTOWN Seoul 2012. world already knows that baekhyun is a big fanboy of SNSD and since Taeyeon has the best vocal among the members i secretly have this idea that probably he likes Taeyeon the most (still it's my perspective looking at myself liking Baekhyun the most because i myself love singing)

but then again, so what? it's not like they date or else. but i felt so bad. like i saw something i really didn't wanna see. but why? why this? do i know Baekhyun personally? no. does he know me? no. does he even know i exist? obviously no. then why... why do i care too much?

and then again i looked up on youtube and found this video. and i was like... "whoa, Baek, really?" and without me noticed i was in tears. goddamn this feels. why should i be in tears? it's ridiculous. i never really liked SNSD and Taeyeon (even i do admit that they're all pretty and Taeyeon has an amazing vocal). this is just so weird. is that how much i love you, Baekhyun? i know you're also a human, but we're on really different levels. at this rate i should just love you a fan. and as a fan i should be happy for you if you have to get to someone you like for a long time. 

but again, no. i'm not happy. at all. why?

i think i know the reason. i just pretend i don't....

it's not that i love you THAT much. it's because i hate being in trauma. trauma about unexpected event of undesired love. trauma of looking at something hurting right in front of my eyes. trauma of one-sided love. trauma about thing i am even scared to talk in my own blog...